Almost going to bed now, just figured that it's fine time for one blog post before I go into my dreamland. Considering that, it's been so long and if I don't post a post now, I will probably be thought as having died.
Anyway, weather's getting warmer and spring is coming, really, this time. Forecast says that tomorrow will be a rainy day, but I am hoping and praying that it will be a sunny day again like today. Sometimes, it really makes me wonder, if our moods should follow the climate so much?
Climate is a very odd thing, you can have proper weather climate, but you can also have climate of people around you. And really, mood is affected by either of them, more so the latter. In psychiatry, we use weather and climate as an analogy for affect and mood. But, is it actually good to allow your own 'climate' to be affected by that of other people? Hard question, because you sometimes want to understand what people close to you are going through, but you also want to be able to detach yourself from it when it becomes too overwhelming.
Life is always so contradictory huh? We want something, but we don't want it as well. It's like how you can want chili because it gives you the excitement in taste, and yet do not want it, because of the pain it gives. Before you start wondering, NO, I am not emo-ing. LOL. It's just a sudden fascination with emotions and thoughts of people around me that I have become rather hypersensitive to lately.
But, anyhow, I think I have failed, as a friend, in quite a number of occasions, in the past, and at present. I chose to run away, not because of what others may perceive as responsibility, but because I am so afraid to allow myself to sink into what someone is going through. To all who have in different occasions where I ran away instead of lending a shoulder, I apologize. I apologize for not being there to comfort. I apologize for running away in spite of knowing how low or how much you needed a pat on your back.
Anyway, that's enough for reflection. To my dear friends who still read this blog, (and Foo, you're still very elusive as a blogger and a facebook-er huh?), I am fine. Looking forward, eagerly, to the moment I will set foot again on Malaysian soil, although I think most of us have already been dispersed to the many corners of the world.
Okay, that's it for now, haha. =D A very very short update, alright, my exams are in 4 weeks, 2 reports to hand in in 1-2 weeks, and 1 month away from Malaysia. That's about it, I guess, minus the many many things that happened throughout the semester, but that will be for another day.
Sunday, 25 April 2010
Sunday, 15 November 2009
Huhuhu
Been a long long time since my last last post. =D
What do we have today? Well, a new look, although still boring T_T ... Foo hasn't posted yet... OMG. and I thought I was bad at this....
I just completed my first rotation in respiratory medicine, and to be truthful, this is the first time I actually see relevance in what I do in classes to what I want to achieve... Took me long huh... tsk tsk tsk ... And with that, I also completed my 1st exam this year, 4 more to come.
It really is a wonder how I even remember the address for this blog... maybe it's time to change it... will probably think of something more appropriate ... since I really really find it hard to even remember this address... =.=
Ooooo... and I like Bon Jovi's new album, The Circle =D okay... maybe it's just that I never realised his existence... Oh well, still not too late...
Mwahahahhaha. And again, I'll give Foo a shout: BLOG!
What do we have today? Well, a new look, although still boring T_T ... Foo hasn't posted yet... OMG. and I thought I was bad at this....
I just completed my first rotation in respiratory medicine, and to be truthful, this is the first time I actually see relevance in what I do in classes to what I want to achieve... Took me long huh... tsk tsk tsk ... And with that, I also completed my 1st exam this year, 4 more to come.
It really is a wonder how I even remember the address for this blog... maybe it's time to change it... will probably think of something more appropriate ... since I really really find it hard to even remember this address... =.=
Ooooo... and I like Bon Jovi's new album, The Circle =D okay... maybe it's just that I never realised his existence... Oh well, still not too late...
Mwahahahhaha. And again, I'll give Foo a shout: BLOG!
Friday, 27 June 2008
Home sweet Home!
HSH~
Wheeeee. Back in where you can get food 24 hours a day, where you see 3 flyovers above one another with a road running on the ground, where I can sleep without the need of a duvet covering myself, where etc. etc....... YES! I'm home. (Well, it had been 22 days, actually, 3 weeks, it's just that I never got around to write this)
Anyway, it's really nice to be home. Although I've been sick for the past 2 weeks, but that does not dampen the joy to be home at last.
Okay, really have nothing much to say at the moment, because my brain is at the verge of going into sleep mode. Heh. I'll write more the next time.
(To Foo: WEI, exam dah habis pun!!! Bila nak post post kau tu....)
Wheeeee. Back in where you can get food 24 hours a day, where you see 3 flyovers above one another with a road running on the ground, where I can sleep without the need of a duvet covering myself, where etc. etc....... YES! I'm home. (Well, it had been 22 days, actually, 3 weeks, it's just that I never got around to write this)
Anyway, it's really nice to be home. Although I've been sick for the past 2 weeks, but that does not dampen the joy to be home at last.
Okay, really have nothing much to say at the moment, because my brain is at the verge of going into sleep mode. Heh. I'll write more the next time.
(To Foo: WEI, exam dah habis pun!!! Bila nak post post kau tu....)
Friday, 11 April 2008
Jo's tag fulfilled
Why lar tag me, Jo.... T_T... and why lar, tell me, kai.... now I need to do this... and so many questions...... depressing nia.
1. What age do you wish to marry?
Marriage arrr? Pak tor oso not yet lar... long way to go, considering that I still have a shitlong way to go pursuing the license to pursue even more. We'll see as things go... =P and a relationship is so not a thing to get into now--- for me lah.
2. What will you do when you feel really emo?
I will.... rant all day long, rush to my bed, cry and fall asleep, hoping that I will forget about wat made me emo... although that will obviously not be the case. I guess my piano all the way back in Malaysia is usually my listener.
3. Who is your idol?
Idol? No one, i guess. Or maybe an image of me I want to pursue and become I have in my head. LOL... and ζδΈθͺζ!
4. Where is the place you want to go most?
It would be the furthest corner of the world where I can enjoy just maybe an hour away from the world that we live in, just to find out who I am.
5. If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
It would be that my family, friends can always be happy and healthy and if, I were to die before them, give me enough time to spend time with each of them before I take flight. Crazy thought, but somehow always had that in mind, not to forget, that I will always remember that they are not there forever and not take their existence or love for granted. Oh wait, that's 3, oh well, I'm greedy.
6. What is the purpose of your life?
Not much. Still looking for a direction. But one thing I'm sure. Love my family and friends (although I don't think I'm doing that exactly well now, considering my frequent disappearance.)
7. What are you afraid to lose the most right now?
People I love.
8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
What cheers me up? Good question, I have no idea. I guess it's good to have a simple mind sometimes, gah... I'm thinking a lot again. LOL.
9. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
Why not? It might be the first and the last. Tell someone you love them before you lose th chance to do so.
10. List out 3 good things about the person who tagged you.
He's cool. He's urm... God loving? and he's I'm sure, a good friend to have.
11. What type of person do you hate the most?
I guess bitches are the worst people you can get in the world, if you get what I mean.
12. What would you do if you won a million dollars?
A million?! For now, I think I will try to multiply that by some multiples, and hopefully, give it out for causes that will do some changes to the world we live in today.
13. What is your ambition?
Well, I'm not sure yet. I'm taking medicine, but it seems that this degree opens you up to so much choices. I have no idea yet. I'll take things as the come.
14. What will you do if you get rejected by someone you like?
I will wish that person the best and always be a friend available, bright and sunny or dark and stormy. It may hurt, but I'm sure love is deeper than being together with someone. I'll quote a line I saw somewhere: "Love @ 1st sight isnt a miracle but two lookin @ each other 4eva, that's miracle!" Well, I trust if you can't be in what we see as lovers today, you can still be there for the person you love.
15. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
OMG, why this question! This list is gonna be so long. But I will list a few that I will definitely work to try to change (and also to serve as a reminder for myself):
1. Taking people around me for granted.
2. Having mood-swings at totally random times for no reason, which sometimes piss people off. (And i'm really sorry to those people I have pissed off before)
3. Stop looking back, instead, use the past for reflection and learning to improve myself in the coming future.
4. Not fulfilling things that I have said or promised to do, but backed out in the end, without prior notice.
5. Appreciate all that I have and show that.
A lot more... and I will definitely try and change them before
16. What is your favourite colour?
No colour in particular. I guess as long as they match well, it's good. But red, blue and green would be interesting colours, not to wear on, but for the fact that they are the few main colours of visible light that will give you the whole spectrum of colours you see in light.
17. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
That will be like Jo's answer, what I'm most afraid of losing.
18. If there's one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?
Set all the wrongs I have done in my life right before I can't do it anymore, especially wrongs that I've done to other people.
19. What would you do if tomorrow is the last day of the world?
Last day of the world? Give my all to let people I love know I love and appreciate them.
20. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
I think if that person can understand the me no one sees, not even myself, to some extent, that's the right person.
Oh my, I feel a bit naked after posting this post. You people reading it had better not spread this around. I know my readership is quite low, so I'll trust you guys and girls readin this. Heh. And sorry for making you guys going through such a long long post. It's almost like a journey through my thoughts for myself too. AND it's okay if you do fall asleep reading it, because it seriously is excrutiatingly boring. (This was done partly also to satisfy my dear friend, Kai.)
Now, to complete the tag by tagging 2 other innocent individuals who have done no wrong to me. First, it will be my dear partner who haven't yet made a post on this blog, Mr. Foo Chuan Shen.
The second lucky person will be my dear friend Li Yenn who is here in Edinburgh with me. Wakakakaka. I feel so evil now.
K... enough with that high. And sorry for that bloody long post. Now, I shall go back into the "invisible from the world" mode. Till next time ;)
1. What age do you wish to marry?
Marriage arrr? Pak tor oso not yet lar... long way to go, considering that I still have a shitlong way to go pursuing the license to pursue even more. We'll see as things go... =P and a relationship is so not a thing to get into now--- for me lah.
2. What will you do when you feel really emo?
I will.... rant all day long, rush to my bed, cry and fall asleep, hoping that I will forget about wat made me emo... although that will obviously not be the case. I guess my piano all the way back in Malaysia is usually my listener.
3. Who is your idol?
Idol? No one, i guess. Or maybe an image of me I want to pursue and become I have in my head. LOL... and ζδΈθͺζ!
4. Where is the place you want to go most?
It would be the furthest corner of the world where I can enjoy just maybe an hour away from the world that we live in, just to find out who I am.
5. If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
It would be that my family, friends can always be happy and healthy and if, I were to die before them, give me enough time to spend time with each of them before I take flight. Crazy thought, but somehow always had that in mind, not to forget, that I will always remember that they are not there forever and not take their existence or love for granted. Oh wait, that's 3, oh well, I'm greedy.
6. What is the purpose of your life?
Not much. Still looking for a direction. But one thing I'm sure. Love my family and friends (although I don't think I'm doing that exactly well now, considering my frequent disappearance.)
7. What are you afraid to lose the most right now?
People I love.
8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?
What cheers me up? Good question, I have no idea. I guess it's good to have a simple mind sometimes, gah... I'm thinking a lot again. LOL.
9. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
Why not? It might be the first and the last. Tell someone you love them before you lose th chance to do so.
10. List out 3 good things about the person who tagged you.
He's cool. He's urm... God loving? and he's I'm sure, a good friend to have.
11. What type of person do you hate the most?
I guess bitches are the worst people you can get in the world, if you get what I mean.
12. What would you do if you won a million dollars?
A million?! For now, I think I will try to multiply that by some multiples, and hopefully, give it out for causes that will do some changes to the world we live in today.
13. What is your ambition?
Well, I'm not sure yet. I'm taking medicine, but it seems that this degree opens you up to so much choices. I have no idea yet. I'll take things as the come.
14. What will you do if you get rejected by someone you like?
I will wish that person the best and always be a friend available, bright and sunny or dark and stormy. It may hurt, but I'm sure love is deeper than being together with someone. I'll quote a line I saw somewhere: "Love @ 1st sight isnt a miracle but two lookin @ each other 4eva, that's miracle!" Well, I trust if you can't be in what we see as lovers today, you can still be there for the person you love.
15. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
OMG, why this question! This list is gonna be so long. But I will list a few that I will definitely work to try to change (and also to serve as a reminder for myself):
1. Taking people around me for granted.
2. Having mood-swings at totally random times for no reason, which sometimes piss people off. (And i'm really sorry to those people I have pissed off before)
3. Stop looking back, instead, use the past for reflection and learning to improve myself in the coming future.
4. Not fulfilling things that I have said or promised to do, but backed out in the end, without prior notice.
5. Appreciate all that I have and show that.
A lot more... and I will definitely try and change them before
16. What is your favourite colour?
No colour in particular. I guess as long as they match well, it's good. But red, blue and green would be interesting colours, not to wear on, but for the fact that they are the few main colours of visible light that will give you the whole spectrum of colours you see in light.
17. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
That will be like Jo's answer, what I'm most afraid of losing.
18. If there's one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?
Set all the wrongs I have done in my life right before I can't do it anymore, especially wrongs that I've done to other people.
19. What would you do if tomorrow is the last day of the world?
Last day of the world? Give my all to let people I love know I love and appreciate them.
20. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
I think if that person can understand the me no one sees, not even myself, to some extent, that's the right person.
Oh my, I feel a bit naked after posting this post. You people reading it had better not spread this around. I know my readership is quite low, so I'll trust you guys and girls readin this. Heh. And sorry for making you guys going through such a long long post. It's almost like a journey through my thoughts for myself too. AND it's okay if you do fall asleep reading it, because it seriously is excrutiatingly boring. (This was done partly also to satisfy my dear friend, Kai.)
Now, to complete the tag by tagging 2 other innocent individuals who have done no wrong to me. First, it will be my dear partner who haven't yet made a post on this blog, Mr. Foo Chuan Shen.
The second lucky person will be my dear friend Li Yenn who is here in Edinburgh with me. Wakakakaka. I feel so evil now.
K... enough with that high. And sorry for that bloody long post. Now, I shall go back into the "invisible from the world" mode. Till next time ;)
Wednesday, 5 March 2008
The Scientist
Was doing PBL and got addicted to this song.
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Comet tails
Heads on the science apart
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing
The numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and hold me
I want to rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Comin' back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m going back to the start...
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Comet tails
Heads on the science apart
Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing
The numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and hold me
I want to rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Comin' back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m going back to the start...
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ah ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Thursday, 28 February 2008
Long due update
Hihi,
Odd how I have to choose a time when I'm sick and aching all over to blog. All Foo's fault lah, at least I've made my 3rd post. I'm having a bad fever and am pretty much confined to my bed. Not much to talk about, really. Heh.
Man, I miss every thing Malaysian now. How're you guys? Is it Ho Sheng's Bday today? Happy Bday, if it is.
And what's with the Foo video on QH's blog? Couldn't really catch what Foo was saying or the others.
All right, I think I've talked enough. Need to get back to bed before my body starts throwing a tantrum and make me suffer more.
Before I go, here is something I found rather interesting.
FOO, NEXT POST IS YOURS. YOU BETTER POST SOMETHING ABOUT JAY'S CONCERT. YOU BLOODY WENT FOR IT.
Odd how I have to choose a time when I'm sick and aching all over to blog. All Foo's fault lah, at least I've made my 3rd post. I'm having a bad fever and am pretty much confined to my bed. Not much to talk about, really. Heh.
Man, I miss every thing Malaysian now. How're you guys? Is it Ho Sheng's Bday today? Happy Bday, if it is.
And what's with the Foo video on QH's blog? Couldn't really catch what Foo was saying or the others.
All right, I think I've talked enough. Need to get back to bed before my body starts throwing a tantrum and make me suffer more.
Before I go, here is something I found rather interesting.
FOO, NEXT POST IS YOURS. YOU BETTER POST SOMETHING ABOUT JAY'S CONCERT. YOU BLOODY WENT FOR IT.
Sunday, 7 October 2007
Arthur Seat Sunset
All right, it wasn't today. It was Thursday. I thought I needed some exercise, and so, at the invitation of Stephanie, I went for a jog up to Arthur Seat (basically, the highest peak in Edinburgh).
This is Arthur's Seat (I have absolutely no idea why it was named so).
Up there...
A puddle of water up at the peak
One side of Edinburgh at dusk
Another view of it
Sunset
The sky
An "X" in the Sky
Walking backBeautiful? =P
Sunday, 30 September 2007
A blog at last?
Today, the last day of September, is the birth of an idea from both, Foo and me. Yeah, we're having a blog at last, one that will be maintained and posted on by the both of us. This is nothing like an interesting post, as I don't really have any content to put into this post.
All right, to the mains now. Since Foo did not want to make the first post, I will take the "honour" of posting first. Just watched {Secret}by Jay today... Again.
Can never seem to get enough of that movie. It's sad, yet happy. The love is distant yet close.
Getting crazy soon. And yeah, the template is indeed inspired by that movie, most of the images ripped from some part of the movie or some images on the web and photoshop'd. It's quite ugly, considering that I am still not sure as to how to customize the "New Template" by Blogger, that one with the "page elements" thingy.
All right, that's all for this first post. I really should be doing my CV and I'm getting sick. T_T
All right, to the mains now. Since Foo did not want to make the first post, I will take the "honour" of posting first. Just watched {Secret}
Can never seem to get enough of that movie. It's sad, yet happy. The love is distant yet close.
Getting crazy soon. And yeah, the template is indeed inspired by that movie, most of the images ripped from some part of the movie or some images on the web and photoshop'd. It's quite ugly, considering that I am still not sure as to how to customize the "New Template" by Blogger, that one with the "page elements" thingy.
All right, that's all for this first post. I really should be doing my CV and I'm getting sick. T_T
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